This is my place to hang my DA II Fandom hat, either by reblogging my love for Fenris & Anders or passing on fics or amazing art.
Logo art by Jakface and msbarrows., from my request for Fenris in a suit.
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Some days I go “maybe I tumblr savior too much”
then I remember how much I hate everything I tumblr savior.
There are days when I really, really loathe my mother. Today is one of them. She called to ‘remind me’ about Mother’s Day. Unfortunately I can’t do anything until my next payday. Even if I was of a mind to do anything, I’m not but that’s another story.
To which she replied, you can’t even get a card? You know I am not obligated to do anything. Considering I’ve been told on more than one occasion that she didn’t have to have me. Which is just so fucking comforting to hear.
I’m so fucking tired of the guilt trips, the idea I owe her for anything, or the fact I exist. I get it, I wasn’t wanted and fucked up your life. Not my mistake, but yours and I’m sick of paying for it with the passive-aggressive bullshit I’ve dealt with since leaving home.
Finally got my hair done tonight. It’s gotten really long! Under a cut to spare you my face. :p
…I have become terribly impulsive lately, maybe it’s my impending midlife crisis or something? BUT. Talking to my sweet wifey I decided that screw propriety and being sensible, I will save some money and go and see her in Chicago this summer. After finding out that the flights are less than I just paid for my Christmas holiday at home, why the hell not?
So yeah. That’s A Plan.
(Though I did plan originally to go to the SDCC with Thess this year but that does not seem feasible at the moment - that may have to wait until next year)
I AM FLAILING WILDLY IN MY CHAIR WIFEY, FLAIIIILING!
someone I work with today said the Silmarillion was a bad book
I bloodied my tongue trying not to rail them
What they meant was
“It was a difficult read and I was not invested in the story.”
and that’s acceptable
but don’t call it bad
Twilight is bad
the Silmarillion is difficult, at worst
Text under the cut since it deals with my real life and stuff.
Not particularly long, but behind a cut to spare you my not so merry xmas…
La la la I am still in Brisbane free wi-fi yaaay
Boarding in about 40 minutes
I won’t be in Chicago until 10.20pm then god knows how i’m gonna get to my hotel i’ll probably have to get a cab or something
Also, all Amurikka- related posts will be tagged #america 2012
I can’t wait! If you get lost call me and I can help you navigate the trains/buses. Otherwise get a cab to your hotel. <3
All great points anon. I think it’s hard when people can’t see the value in their own work and therefore add in the comments, such as this is shit, It’s not that good, why did I bother posting this…(fill in the blank). It’s could be about their own insecurity in their work, or whatever/however they feel about it, or how they see it. It’s no less valid but it’s… hard to see all the time.
The hard part about it is when you see people who are talented, who do things in moments that would take others days, weeks or months to master discounting it as nothing.
That’s the part that really slaps you in the face when you are struggling with your art, your words, any kind of creative endeavor. For me, it’s seeing someone who has a way with words deprecate their fics, calling them crap or saying it’s something I just pitched together in a few minutes…especially on a day when I’m struggling to find words, to speak in that characters voice and to see them discount such great work makes me feel like I shouldn’t bother.
After all, if that’s what they think is crap, then why should I even try?
The really hard part? It’s not intentional (I’m giving people the benefit of the doubt, that they aren’t out to make other people feel like shit about their art or fic, but if I’m wrong, I’m wrong and I’ll accept that).
It’s not done to push others out of fandom, or get all the attention for their art or fic. A piece can only garner the attention that it’s given. True some people get 100, 200 + notes on their name alone. It’s not fair, and it can hurt to see the same people always getting all the reblogs, always getting all the kudos.
I admit it, I get those pangs of jealousy at times. For as much as I talk about not doing this for recognition or feels or kudos/love… just once in a while it would be cool to be the popular kid ya know? I’m human, I fail just like anyone else.
All of that rambling was to say… all of us, give ourselves a break. Stop putting ourselves down for two very good reasons.
One, (THIS APPLIES TO THE COLLECTIVE YOU) your art, your fic, your presence in fandom (any fandom) is welcome. You should never feel like you can’t contribute because someone else may have done something you were also working on, or that because they are a well know fan aka BNF that you can’t also post your art or fic that has the same pairing or idea, or whatever. That’s just it, it’s yours and your style will be yours and no one else’s.No one owns any fandom or any parts thereof. We all have a part to play be it a reader, writer, artist, beta, fan…
Two, because intentionally or not you could contribute to someone else putting down their stylus for good. Or seeing someone who can really whip words into shape put themselves down again, and again could kill your desire to write, to shape alternate worlds with the existing characters we’ve been given.
So just some food for thought the next time you find yourself decrying your own art, or your own fics.
No, before anyone even says it, I am not trying to police anyone’s feelings or what they post, I’m just asking you to think about what you say and how it can affect other people, that’s all.